I am really close to hitting that point. Depressed, frustrated and feeling defeated beyond anything I have ever experienced.
Went to see General surgeon yesterday for consultation about putting in feeding tube. Made it VERY clear when I called that I had bariatric surgery and this is a gtube to go thru my bypassed stomach to allow access for GI to do ERCP, etc. Fill out bazillions of papers, wait for surgeon to come into room, then blam. Surgeon wont do gtube on bariatric patients. WTF?!?!?!?!?! What a friggin waste of my time and non-existent energy.
I thought that I was in hell from this stomach pain that's been going on continuously since October. The past week proved that it could get worse. On/off fever and chills, now growing pain in left side.... where is the end? where is that breaking point?
Made an appointment with bariatric surgeon for Monday afternoon. I asked if he will do the g-tube even though I am still smoking. I went off on him back in January because he stated this pain is being caused by my smoking. It is certainly not helping, but absolutely not the cause. I had quit smoking back in May prior to the surgery. The pain is what brought back the smoking. The lesser of two evils. Either a few smokes a day, or become a narcotics addict.
What the hell is the point of driving 45 minutes to his office, especially with gas prices being what they are, if he wont do the tube? The office refuses to answer that question, stating that I need to come in and see the doc to talk to him. REALLY? It's not like I am asking anyone to define quantum physics or the theory of relativity.
Just so disgusted. The happy-go-lucky in me is gone. It's like the life in me is slowly being sucked out.
Went to see General surgeon yesterday for consultation about putting in feeding tube. Made it VERY clear when I called that I had bariatric surgery and this is a gtube to go thru my bypassed stomach to allow access for GI to do ERCP, etc. Fill out bazillions of papers, wait for surgeon to come into room, then blam. Surgeon wont do gtube on bariatric patients. WTF?!?!?!?!?! What a friggin waste of my time and non-existent energy.
I thought that I was in hell from this stomach pain that's been going on continuously since October. The past week proved that it could get worse. On/off fever and chills, now growing pain in left side.... where is the end? where is that breaking point?
Made an appointment with bariatric surgeon for Monday afternoon. I asked if he will do the g-tube even though I am still smoking. I went off on him back in January because he stated this pain is being caused by my smoking. It is certainly not helping, but absolutely not the cause. I had quit smoking back in May prior to the surgery. The pain is what brought back the smoking. The lesser of two evils. Either a few smokes a day, or become a narcotics addict.
What the hell is the point of driving 45 minutes to his office, especially with gas prices being what they are, if he wont do the tube? The office refuses to answer that question, stating that I need to come in and see the doc to talk to him. REALLY? It's not like I am asking anyone to define quantum physics or the theory of relativity.
Just so disgusted. The happy-go-lucky in me is gone. It's like the life in me is slowly being sucked out.